Pushing through

I think this photo sums up how I feel right about now. I  walked to work this morning and my short cut home turned out to be an extra km further ! I want to eat something sweet….I even had Neal come with me to the store so I wouldn’t cave in and buy something evil. I did make the trip to the vending machine today only to find out that it wasn’t stocked during the summer….so no sweets for me.
I had the energy to make dinner….we did the dishes together and are now attempting to watch a film….Looming is the task of making a lunch for tomorrow and I know if I don’t do it ahead of time it’ll never get done…
So I’ll cut it short for tonight !!

Day two of walking to work – complete !

Biggest Loser Knu-Lert Style

The 25th of August marked the one month anniversary of our engagement – which means we are one month closer to exchanging vows. We haven’t set a date yet however I know the daunting task of finding a wedding dress is around the corner and one that cannot be left until the last minute.  Both of our waist lines have grown astronomically and we decided we didn’t want to start our married life with old and bad habits – food habits !! Neal is a chronic snacker and I’m a binge eater – and exercise is a struggle for me. Thus the Biggest Loser Challenge – Knu-Lert style was born. We want to lose 100 lbs – that’s 50 each. The idea is to follow a low gi diet and exercise regularly. We are competing for money, every two weeks we pay each other $10 for each pound lost. The money is to be used to treat ourselves to something we want and otherwise wouldn’t buy.  Money is definitely a motivator for both of us.We had our first weigh in this morning – it was 214 for me and 247 for him.

Today was a good day for me. I walked to and from work – 6 km round trip. I ate a healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. I made my lunch in prep for work tomorrow !! Yeah me !!! I’ve decided to set mini-goals for myself each week – this week’s goal is to NOT take the bus to or from work. So far 1 day down….I really hope I can do it ! I’m already looking forward to weigh in 🙂 And I’ve been contemplating what I will treat myself to. I’m aiming to lose 2 lbs this week and 2 lbs next week – for a total of $40.  I’m thinking new bras !!!!
On Sunday we took K to church with us. It was her first time at our church and she really liked Sunday School – which I have a feeling was more like a play date than anything else. I didn’t want to go to church, however K’s desire to dress up and wear her new dress from Grandma and Granddad made it impossible to stay home, so off we went. It was a guest speaker who was entertaining and taught us about Evangelism. I was however more moved by some of the music and it reminded me that I’m always trying to do things my way instead of being open and listening for God’s way. God’s way is much easier and way better. He’s got a perfect plan for my imperfect life. This has been reinforced a couple of times today – we watched some Christian programming. I got a lot out of it – and the simple message is – I need to go to God for everything and stop trying to do everything myself. I can’t do it ! And it’s a lot of pressure. SO I dedicate my food and my weight loss to God and I’m doing it for His glory. This time I’m going to be successful and it’s not because I did it – but because God’s power did it.

I have been really craving spiritual nourishment. We watched a couple of religious documentaries tonight. One I highly enjoyed – it was called The Bible vs Joseph Smith. It reiterated some of the apologetics I had learned in the past and was great to watch with Neal as he’s new to apologetics and the bible as a text outside of church. I think it opened his eyes to some things…I love sharing this kind of stuff with him. I have always wanted to date someone who was Christian – it’s beyond my wildest dreams that I would find someone who’d also be open to learning with me.
We have started saying grace at dinner which is a nice thing and a reminder to think  about God in our daily lives. I have started praying more which is something I have never been very consistent at. I’m going to make talking to God my number one priority and everything else will fall into place if it’s God’s will.

Working 9 to 5….7 days a week….

I have to admit I’m a little tired of working !! The drive is just not there…I haven’t had a weekend off in 2 weeks and I’m about ready for my vacation to start. Oh wait – FIVE more sleeps and vacation starts. Can’t wait.

We were both up early this morning and started in on K’s room. It looks great. We had WWW III over this desk that we’d jammed in to the trunk of the car. He wanted to ditch it somewhere. I convinced him to bring it home and then when we did get it home. It was far too big for the space !!! Soooooooooooooooo my lovely boyfriend cut it and made the desk four feet. It’s now perfect. We covered it in a few coats of spray paint and added some butterfly stickers. This morning N also painted the room a lovely lilac color. I love it !! I can’t wait for K to see it !! We just need to make the polka dot curtains and duvet cover as requested and voila – PERFECTION.

What else besides work ?

I applied to Firmoo.com. They have a blogger program – where they send me a free pair of glasses, I test them out and write a blog about it. We’ll see if I get accepted. After all this blog has just been born and doesn’t have many followers YET. *Fingers crossed* on this one !!

My grandmother is still hanging on. I still have to finish her eulogy and I know that I should really get to it, as it will become  much more difficult to write after she passes.

My parents leave for the UAE tomorrow regardless of grandma’s status. They have already postponed returning for two weeks. Who knows how long grandma will hang in there. The funeral has been scheduled for the 11th of August which is convenient for me as I’ll already be at home at that time. My parents will also be back from the UAE at that time.

The major insult of the week was a request from my uncle and aunt to see a copy of my eulogy before hand. As my mom put it “J has her Masters degree and has presented 100’s of times, I’m sure she doesn’t need you to proof read it”. My cousin is also writing something or no wait he’s going to wing it…so they didn’t need to see his. How is that better ?? I’m sure they want to control what I am going to say and to be honest they won’t like what I have to say (when I thank my mother for all her love and support without which grandma would not be as well cared for as she is). It’s the truth !! And grandma had told me in the past that she was thankful for my mother’s help and that without her she could not have stayed in her home as long as she did.

I was very saddened to hear that my Aunt made a comment in front of the minister, who was stopping by to visit grandma. The minister never met grandma before but said something like “I hear she was a very religious woman”. To which my aunt and her husband said “Well unfortunately she didn’t have all her ducks in a row.” I’m not sure what that means !! I get the impression that they think grandma isn’t going to heaven. Well she was not a saint however if grandma doesn’t go to heaven than no one will. My dad said it has something to do with the “dunking” that grandma never did. To that I say Bollocks !!! It’s yet again another group of Christians trying to do “good works” to “earn” their place in  heaven.

“and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;”  Isaiah 64:6

Sorry folks it can’t be done – there is no earning !! Jesus died for us and that’s the ultimate thing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!